All the words I was comfortable saying to him, but never would have been able to say to anyone else.

Stupid song made me think of you.

I don't think I'll ever be able to listen Afterglow again without it reminding me of you in some way. A part of me will always wish you had known when it mattered.

I will never understand why I put other people's happiness in front of my own, even when it compromises my own happiness.

Don't be cryptic. Don't keep me hanging on a breakable thread. All this uncertainty, it's making me unhappy. You're making me unhappy.

give me happiness?

I am not very good at voicing my opinion, or creating boundaries in my relationships. I don’t ask for what I want because I don’t think people care about me enough to do those things. In my experience, they really don’t. I feel like I'm never going to be completely happy and it makes me hate myself. Hate myself because I'm the one who dug that hole.

Birthday.

Funny how creativity seems to disappear when I'm happy. Thank you for that. Happy Birthday, Y.A.K.

Sometimes you have to be your own hero.

"You were born because you are going to be important to someone."

I don’t know what to say to my friends when something is wrong. It’s always the same problem with me and I’m afraid that they’re sick and tired of hearing it. I know my problem is silly, and I wish I could get over it. Now, I just keep everything to myself. 

What do you do when your good isn't good enough

Feelings

I keep hoping for something that cannot possibly be real. I wish I could just forget the way I feel.

Unsaid.

2 months to graduation. No point whatsoever. Leaving some things unsaid.

Come back, come back to me, like you would, you would if this were a movie.

I feel so unwanted sometimes.

Where no one knows my name.

Will be in Boston in less than 36 hours (I think. I suck at math)... and counting.

Best Friend Forever?

I thought we were supposed to be best friends. How come you're the only one who can't tell something's wrong. Because you're the only one I want to talk to.

expectations.

Because when you left, you made me feel like I wasn't good enough. And for a long time I believed it. And I put myself down. And I tried to turn my self into something I wasn't. I tried to live up to other people's expectations. Because I wasn't good enough.

But, the thing about other people's expectations is that they suck. I'm going to make my own.

"Do you know when to walk away? Do you know when not to take less than you deserve?" - Grey's Anatomy.

Faith.

So I get down on my knees and pray.

You're flawed to perfection.

Can you love someone without liking them?

You hypocritical asshole. I used to look up to you. I still love you but you've lost all the respect I ever had for you. You're the reason I don't have anything to believe in anymore.

You make me smile. :)

Trying to be perfect; trying not to let you down.

2012.

Here's to 2011. You made me stronger in ways I had never imagined. I've gained and I've lost. And I could whine about it all I want.

But, I'm going to focus on the good for once.

The best part of 2011? I found people who teach you the true meaning of friendship. People who are there for you regardless of the way you act towards them. People who can handle your random mood swings. And people who stay. Stay when you scream at them. They stay when you tell them you don't need them. Because at the end of the day you do. You really really need them.




I found people I love.