You know, it's funny. Everyday I worry about my grades. My colleges. How I'm going to ever get into one. Make future plans. Spend hours thinking of stuff I want to make happen.
Not just me. Everyone does.
People die. Everyday. I've had a closed one pass away. But it's this death that's had a huge effect on me. Why, I ask myself. Maybe it's because he was friends with a lot of my friends. Maybe he was my age. Maybe because just like me, he was some guy who planned his future everyday.
Little did he know, little did anyone know that just a day after his exams would end, he would pass away so tragically. When I heard about him, even though I had no idea who he was I was shocked. Terrified. It could easily have been me. Could easily have been someone I know. Could easily have been me.
I don't know if I've done what I was supposed to do in this life.
All I know is that, I need to stop pushing people out. I need to start trusting again. I need to leave behind some reasons to be missed. People WILL let you down. Not everyone though. This world is full of pain. But there's love too. And I'm lucky enough to have it.
I don't know who I know personally reads this blog, and I like having it that way. But you never know who's going to die. And when. You never get the chance to say I love you a last time.
So I want to do it. If any of you guys read it: I love you guys. Way more than you know and way more than I show.
RIP, Faraz Khan. I didn't know you. I hadn't heard about you till two days back. But you've had an effect on me. Innalillahi wainnailahi rajioon.