I can't breathe without you, but I have to

Broken relationships, awkward friendships, the tears and the depression.

Is it ever worth it?

You're the perfect kid. You have the perfect university, perfect grades, you're the perfect genius, you're popular, you're everything. I dislike it. Because of you I have so many expectations to meet from our parents. If I hear "why can't you be more like your brother?" one more time, I'm going to break down and lose it.

I am a pessimist, pretending to be an optimist,

I am a selfish person, who acts selfless,

I am a horrible friend, who seems like a great one,

I am in love with you, but I act like I'm just your friend,

Because I'm worried if I show my true self, everything will fall apart.

I'm terrified.Terrified of failing at life, not succeeding and disappointing the people who rely on me.

Terrified that I'm going to spend the rest of my life alone because everyone eventually leaves.



I'm so, so scared.

You can spend, minutes, hours, days, weeks or even months over-analyzing a situation; trying to put the pieces together, justifying what could've, would've happened - or you can just leave the pieces on the floor and move the fuck on.

You know what? I choose to move the fuck on. It may take time, but I'll get over you. I still want you, as a friend. But you know I'm through falling for you. I'm through wanting you. 'Cause you're a jerk sometimes. And I want someone who doesn't hurt me even though he does it as a joke. I want a guy who doesn't insult me half the time. I want a guy who respects my privacy. I want a guy.. who's not YOU.

Darling, You Are The Only Exception.

And remember this:

never say I love you, if you do not really care; never talk about feelings, if they are not really there; never touch a life,if you mean to break a heart; never say you are going to, if you do not plan to start; never look me in they eye when all you do is lie; never say hello, if you really mean goodbye..

Every girl has three guys in her life.
The one she loves.
The one she hates.
and the one she can't live without.
And in the end,
They're all the same guy.