I'm on my knees after a long long time. Because I'm so tired of not believing, I'll give you a try. Dear God, please help me?
Monday, November 21, 2011
I have no idea what I want to do in life. Where to go for uni. Will probably get rejected from everywhere. Will end up having to major in something boring like Business which I don't even want to do. I don't know where my life is going. I need to get it in order. I've become so fucking lazy and distracted. People annoy the fuck out of me. I don't even know what I want to study. Everyone's getting university offers. I feel left out. I feel stupid. I keep letting down people. And I keep getting fucking compared to everyone else. I need something to look forward to. I need to know I won't be a disappointment. I need to sort my life out. And most of all I need something to believe in because whatever hope I had just got fucked.