Monday, November 21, 2011

I have no idea what I want to do in life. Where to go for uni. Will probably get rejected from everywhere. Will end up having to major in something boring like Business which I don't even want to do. I don't know where my life is going. I need to get it in order. I've become so fucking lazy and distracted. People annoy the fuck out of me. I don't even know what I want to study. Everyone's getting university offers. I feel left out. I feel stupid. I keep letting down people. And I keep getting fucking compared to everyone else. I need something to look forward to. I need to know I won't be a disappointment. I need to sort my life out. And most of all I need something to believe in because whatever hope I had just got fucked.

I'm on my knees after a long long time. Because I'm so tired of not believing, I'll give you a try. Dear God, please help me?

5 comments:

Dalia Starwalker said...

Awwwe, please don't be harsh on yourself. Yous till can make everything right, don't worry you're not alone, I had been feeling like that in the past year, but I managed to make things right, although not every thing.. It's not about believing, it's about believing and taking actions, otherwise, Nothing! nothing will happen, whatever chaos you're living in won't leave you alone..

Khadeeja said...

This is the most relevant post ever. I, too, have no idea what to study. I know that I will be rejected by everywhere good and will end up somewhere I never even imagined going to. Haha. Life needs fixing, I feel left out, I feel stupid. I wish I had words that might have helped you get through but the only thing that comes to my mind is, 'this too shall pass' because I am stuck in the exact same shit. All the best.

Dalia Starwalker said...

You can't just lose hope like that,

Buddy!!! said...

If you could only see what I see! Your Rahima Fucking Sohail... who the fuck is everyone else?!

<3

Whuaat? said...

No. Don't lose hope. I find myself at a similar situation ..on shaky grounds, so unsettled but everything might seem like a blur now but with time, you'll gain clarity.
Really.