Sunday, June 5, 2011

Even though I didn't know you.

You know, it's funny. Everyday I worry about my grades. My colleges. How I'm going to ever get into one. Make future plans. Spend hours thinking of stuff I want to make happen.

Not just me. Everyone does.

People die. Everyday. I've had a closed one pass away. But it's this death that's had a huge effect on me. Why, I ask myself. Maybe it's because he was friends with a lot of my friends. Maybe he was my age. Maybe because just like me, he was some guy who planned his future everyday.

Little did he know, little did anyone know that just a day after his exams would end, he would pass away so tragically. When I heard about him, even though I had no idea who he was I was shocked. Terrified. It could easily have been me. Could easily have been someone I know. Could easily have been me.

I don't know if I've done what I was supposed to do in this life.
All I know is that, I need to stop pushing people out. I need to start trusting again. I need to leave behind some reasons to be missed. People WILL let you down. Not everyone though. This world is full of pain. But there's love too. And I'm lucky enough to have it.

I don't know who I know personally reads this blog, and I like having it that way. But you never know who's going to die. And when. You never get the chance to say I love you a last time.

So I want to do it. If any of you guys read it: I love you guys. Way more than you know and way more than I show.


RIP, Faraz Khan. I didn't know you. I hadn't heard about you till two days back. But you've had an effect on me. Innalillahi wainnailahi rajioon.

6 comments:

Ali said...

May i ask, what happened?

roamer said...

This guy from another college, he went to the seaside. Drowned. It's all very sad. :/

nahl said...

This makes me feel so proud of you =')
ilysm. May he rest in peace, he probably doesn't even know but he has changed so many lives in Just one day.

Ali said...

May he rest in peace.

Take care

Bessy said...

Innalillahi wainnailahi rajioon.

Death should give us both fear and hope at the same time. Fear for the transience of life. Hope for the afterlife.

Good post mashaAllah.

Muhammad Usman Chaudhry said...

Its all we worry about grades, work, future ignoring the fact that death is just around the corner and we don't worry about it until the last moment arrives. But when it does its usually too late.

May Allah keep us on right path and when we die we at least have something for the future which we think is far fetched to be worried about as of now.