All the words I was comfortable saying to him, but never would have been able to say to anyone else.

Stupid song made me think of you.

I don't think I'll ever be able to listen Afterglow again without it reminding me of you in some way. A part of me will always wish you had known when it mattered.

I will never understand why I put other people's happiness in front of my own, even when it compromises my own happiness.

Don't be cryptic. Don't keep me hanging on a breakable thread. All this uncertainty, it's making me unhappy. You're making me unhappy.

give me happiness?

I am not very good at voicing my opinion, or creating boundaries in my relationships. I don’t ask for what I want because I don’t think people care about me enough to do those things. In my experience, they really don’t. I feel like I'm never going to be completely happy and it makes me hate myself. Hate myself because I'm the one who dug that hole.

Birthday.

Funny how creativity seems to disappear when I'm happy. Thank you for that. Happy Birthday, Y.A.K.

Sometimes you have to be your own hero.